The war within

1. Finding out that my mother had cancer was the most surprising news I have ever received. I was literally in shock. I remember talking to my eldest brother over the phone wishing him a happy birthday. Sadly there was nothing happy about this day, he had just found out about the cancer and told me about it after I had wished him a happy birthday. I don't remember the conversation going much further. I remember sitting in silence felling like a small and confused child. My mother was my hero, so for me to accept the fact that she was going to die was inconceivable. Honestly I don't remember felling much of anything except for confusion. No fear, no pain, or no sadness, at least not at that moment. At that moment I was physically and emotionally numb. If it wasn't for my son I my have never made it out of the black hole I was quickly falling into. I can not recall how long I sat there felling completely paralyzed, however, as soon as my son touched my leg and said "momma" in his sweet little voice I looked at him, I picked him up, I held him in my arms and quietly began to cry.

Describe a perfect weather day...

A perfect weather day to me is a lot of snow. I love it when there is snow all over and it is still falling from the sky. The first thing I would do on a day like this is make a warm drink, sit on my porch and watch the snow fall. I can sit in silence watching the snow fall for hours. Next my son and I would have to build a snow man of course. After are snow man is built and we have defrosted we would have to break out the sled. Sledding is great fun for children of all ages. In between sledding we would have a snow ball fight because you can't have snow all around you and not throw any of it. When we are finished we will go in the house to warm up and have some dinner. After dinner we would probably play a board game next to a lantern because the electricity has gone out. On my perfect weather day I would live in a house with a fire place so not having electricity isn't a problem. The thing I love the most about snow days is the true quality time I get to have with my son.

What is Worth Fighting for.....

Everything I believe in is worth fighting for is worth fighting for. Everyone I love is worth fighting for. My rights are worth fighting for.

What's Your Definition of Love?

I think that love is very difficult to define. Love comes in many forms. You could love your parents, your siblings, your friends, your children, or your lover. Your love for each of these people are different. Love is a feeling and something we all need. Love is what you make it and that is why it can not be defined. Know one is the same and that is why know body loves the same.